Unit Six: Integral Assessment

1. Practice the universal Loving Kindness (meditation) exercise on p. 93.
2. Complete the Integral Assessment discussed in chapter 11 (p.115).

Describe the exercise and assessment process. What did you discover about yourself? What area have you chosen to be a focus of growth and development? Why? What are some specific exercises or activities that you can implement to foster greater wellness in this area?

I have always known that I always want to fix everything of everything at once.  Of course, this is not possible.  Each time the fact becomes apparent,  I become overwhelmed and give in.  I have always gone big, and came back defeated.  It is very difficult for me, for some reason that I am not yet certain, to separate and work on one detail at a time.  Of course, this is most often the case when I am moving in my own interest.  When doing things for others, I am detail oriented, and want to achieve the most perfect end as possible.  As I type, a thought just came to me that the reason I move forward so boldly and attempt to fix everything is because I do not want there to be anything left for someone else to help me with.  I ask for nothing, and that includes support.  I rarely allow others to be there for me.  I do not know if this is a lack of trust in others, either for their confidence in me, or for their reasons for supporting me.  


As such, I am in a life situation in which my dedication to others and my acceptance of support is providing a lesson.  This is the area I feel needs the most development at this time.  I believe it is much further behind the other aspects of my integral health.  I have had troubles in this area my entire life, and believe it is only with the evolution of this area that I can move toward flourishing.  I believe the loving-kindness practice can assist me in this area.  I also believe perhaps simply practicing trust with those near and dear to me would be helpful.  I certainly do have some control issues, and could do well to let go of some of the minor details.