Self Relection Unit 3

Ah, self-reflection.  I am my own worse critique, or so I have been told.  Physically, I am not happy with myself.  Although I eat well, most of the time, I do not exercise enough.  I have about ten pounds I really want to lose.  I would give myself a 6.  Other than a recent flu that really wiped me out, I am rarely ill.  I have few complaints other than those ten pounds.  Spiritually, I would say I am about a 5.  Though I am not religious, I feel very close with God.  I can feel the energy that flows all around me, from one person to the next, from the beautiful plants growing in my kitchen window, and from the wonderful foods collected from my garden. I pray to God each and every day.  I discuss spirituality on a regular basis.  However, I am still working on relationships with others in this regard.  Psychologically, I would say I am about a 5.  It's 50/50 these days. Mentally, I feel tired and beat up on some days.  Other days, I feel great.  The last couple months have been difficult for me to remember who I am.  I sometimes feel I have lost my identity to become a wife and mother.

Some of the goals I have are to finally begin using my YMCA membership to get those extra 10 pounds off.  They have a daycare, and I really need to stop making excuses and go!!!!!  Spiritually my goal is to join some sort of group.  There is a Buddhist study group.  I have spoken with several of the members.  I have not really found a church that I feel comfortable in as of yet.  The Buddhist study group meets on Tuesday evenings.  So, I would definitely have to make sure to carve out time for school work earlier in the week.  Finally, psychologically, I think I need some "me" time, as Wanda mentioned in our discussion board this week.  I also think it might serve me well to find a mom group.  Overall, I feel disconnected.  I think making connections to others may help me to further evolve.

The relaxation exercise was difficult for me.  Thoughts continuously ran through my mind of all the things I need to do.  I have been feeling like I am constantly behind lately.  My house seems so restless lately.  My children have not been sleeping well.  My husband has been preparing to go on a trip.  I used to be able meditate and consider all my chakras.  The images always seemed so vivid in my mind.  Now, everything is so difficult to envision.  It is frustrating.